Depths of the Sea
I always knew the day would come when you’d flee…
And I prayed we’d meet face to face for goodbyes
But you ran away to the depths of the sea.
I wish I’d accepted your love wasn’t free
Before I’d spent all of my effort and time.
How could I expect that some day you would flee?
Oh how I yelped and to the heavens I’d plea!
How my words rippled out in an onerous cry–
Yet you still disappeared to the depths of the sea.
Looking back, the way was laden with worry
But I couldn’t accept that our ending was nigh;
How could I prepare for the day you would flee…
For the thing that I did fear hath overtaken me.
And in spite of his faith, Job still begged to die,
So I threw myself prostrate in the depths of the sea.
And of the blows I could take, apathy was the least.
And of the things I could beg you, the most vital: to try.
I must have been waiting for the day you would flee…
But it was I who drowned in the depths of the sea.
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ויעקב דיסבול גלותא יטול כלא
ספר הזוהר חלק א דף קצח/א
[The Zohar I:198a]